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Name: Robert
Gender: Male
Interests: My first intrest is in my relationship with God. I also love comic boks, but I am more fasinated by the arts. I love music and books. But of all the things that intrest me I am mostly interested in Jesus Christ.
Expertise: Art
Occupation: Always changing.
Industry: None
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  iamsuperman18
Yahoo:  iambatman_19@yahoo.com
Member Since:
9/5/2006
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| Well its been great but I want a change. I'm tired of this site. So check out my new site!:
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| Blahhh. What a crummy day I feel like crap. Today I slept in and it caused so manny problems. I didnt finish my homework, I didnt do my laundry (so I'm whering dirty cloths), I had to park down town which costs and arm and a leg, I shaved this morning and missed a patch of hair that looks rediculous, I was late to class, I need new shoes despratly because the ones I'm whering suck, etc.
Well now I'm just geting weird. I think the bigest problem is my lack of private worship and my lack of friends. I realy want more friends and the only excuse I have is that I tend to be non soshial. I hate that. I Ignore people and I hate it. It's a horible strange habit. One moment I can have a great conversation and the next I can completley ignore that person. I hate it! I'm sick of it.
I just want more friends.
Mostly I think if I had more friends and if I spent more "real" time with God I would be more encoraged to do the things I need to do. I'm feeling realy depressed because I keep thinking about the time I've waisted in life. I have such huge dreams but my will power to carry out those dreams sucks! I need to do alot of things but I have to start with my motivation. If I was motivated to do things more I would be happy. And my motivation needs to be encoraged by friends and God. | | |
| Its my Birthday! Yipy Huray For ME!
Today I wanted more than anything to taist something alcoholic for the first time in my life. Now before you dump all sorts of wornings on me about not geting drunk and all the trajedy sories. Thank you for your consern but I have had years to think about this. I've never taisted alchohol in my entire life and I've desided to try it. I want to develope a taist for bevorages of that nature. Not so that I can get drunk but so that I can enjoy it.
Pleas understand that I understand the dangers of drinking and I am around druncards at school all the time. I hear the stories and I hear about the lives that are destroyed by drinking. I don't want that life style. So I've made a boundry. Only 2 drinks at the most. And after the first drink if I feel afected than maybe just one drink a day. I want to tast the drinks. I dont want to get drunk. If your conserned don't tell me just pray.
Anyway, I don't think I'll get to drink tonight because I havent renewed my lisence. DANG! Thwarted yet again by my stupidity and forgetfulness.
But I will get to see Transformers tonight YESSSSSS!!! I've seen it before but I'm still pumped. I love Trnasformers! I want my car to be a transformer. Hell I want to be a transformer. I may be 21 but I will never lose that litle boy in me thats easaly fascinated by fire and spaceships and superheroes and guns and guns and guns and did I mention fire arms?
Anyway. Lateley I've been lamenting over the amount of time I have waisted with my sin. Especialy my adiction to porn. Its been 8 or 9 solid years of porn. I hate it. I think it has enslaved my mind for that long and it threatons to do so forever. But Jesus is my key to freedome and finoly after 8 years God has been myrcifull to me. He is faithfull to me and He is showing me the exit door.
So rock on! | | |
| A few days ago I got a phone call from my friend Ebin. The speed scator from church. Well we have been friends for a while. I think its been 4 years. He told me that he will never see me again and he just wanted to say hi for the last time.
Aperantly he has been doing exceedingly well at scaiting and he has blown people away with his talent on the ice. So he is leaving for Salt Lake City to train with the best of the best from America for the olimpics. Wow.
I'm proud but in shock. I bet I will see him again but it will be from a TV screen and not in person.
I think what I lament more than the fact that I won't see him again is the fact that I have been a poor friend to him.
I always do this with friends. I get close and then I push them away again and again. Ushualy I lose friends faster than I make them but Ebin was always willing to forgive and acsept me back. He was always warm and kind and friendly. Even when I was foolisha and didnt give him the time of day.
I've been a bad friend and it frustrates me. What can I say. I'm selfish and I like my comforts. I'm not naturaly good at talking to people and I'm always suspicious about what people realy think about me. But I also want friends. So I make friends and then I push them away when things get to close. I'm comfrotable when I'm alone. I don't have to think about what people think about me. I don't have to worry about what I will say. I'm alone and I like it that way. Its calm that way and I don't have to worry about anything.
But God made us all to want to be with others. So I'm in this constant strugle. And a friend that could have been a great friend. A Kind friend that dosnt judge harshly and isnt frustrating or to selfish is gone.
Well at least I can say "I know that guy" when Ebin wins a gold metle at the Olimpics. Yes! | | |
|  | Currently Watching
The Jacket
By Adrien Brody, Keira Knightley, Kris Kristofferson, Jennifer Jason Leigh, Kelly Lynch
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I'm working can you belive it? It's 715 on a Saturday and I'm working. Most of America isnt even awake yet.
I have to whinterize today which sucks because I told my boss that I need to do homework today and I should stay in the ofice and do drawings. But He sceduled me for whinterizing. SO now I can't go to school and do homework today.
I have to go to school on Sunday and work now. AHHHHHH...
Oh and it gets wors. My brother had a bunch of friends over late last night and I was up late. So I'm tired and mentaly not here. And I look at how I'm working with and I see that I'm working with Tom! Tom.
Tom is a drill sargent of whinterizing. He is the type of person that needs everything to be done perfectly. He must do things his way and if someone gets in the way with that BAM. He likes to abuse verbaly.
Ive worked with him before and whenever anything goes wrong he blames me. Ha. How can I work with this guy. He's Hitler. Saturday morning, I'm tired, Mentaly exausted, Working with Anall Hitler Nazi of Whinterizing must have everything perfect Tom, all while I should be at school doing homework that I have to do tomorow.
I have more frustrations but oh well.
YAY!!! Everything changed. Aperantly I'm working in the ofice like I wanted to! And I'm working on Drawings. SO I can leave and go to school when I need to. Wow!
I can't belive this!
My brother came to work with me and he dosnt have a person to work with. So now he gets to work with Tom instead of me. Also he is new. He gets to train in with Tom. And he's more exausted than I am. Oh my gosh he's going to die. Tom's going to chew him up.
What on earth. What just hapened? Something whent well for me. Awsome. | | |
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